New Glasses, Optometry and Why I'm Sitting on a Fitness Ball in my Cube

This morning I had to go to the Optometrist for my yearly check up... meaning they got to numb my eyes and turn me into a half-vampire for a bit. It was sweet, as always.

I go to the Pacific University Eye Clinic because I'm brave enough to have students touch my eyeballs, etc. Seriously, if I were a more nervous person I probably wouldn't go there, but I trust them since they are finishing their 8th year of school to not permanently blind or injure me. Also, it is nice to know that you aren't going to have some condescending old fart of a doctor talk to you about eye health...

Anyhow, so it's always a different student doctor that sees me so I'm used to not seeing the same person each time, no big deal... but today when the guy came out to get me from the waiting room I was close to hysterical laughter. This guy looked almost EXACTLY like an ex-boyfriend of mine from years and years ago and to see someone looking like him in a lab-coat waiting to take a peek at my peepers was just too much for me.

I had to stifle giggles as he checked my prescription and ran tests... I could see his half-blurry face on the other side of the lenses with a look of intense focus as he recorded the settings. Of course I couldn't say anything because that would be... creepy. What was I going to do? Say,"Hey, Dr. Mitch, you look like a guy I dated in high school... you could be his freakin' twin... isn't that funny?" because it wouldn't be a bit funny to him at all. So I sat there and giggled every time he left the room.

After I was sufficiently numbed, dilated, etc they took pictures of my optic nerves with some new-fangled camera thingy so I was blinded as well. Then Dr. Mitch took me out to pick out a new pair of glasses since my prescription had changed ever so slightly. This isn't the usual protocol, but the eye-glass lady had to be at a seminar and so wouldn't be back until later so my student doc got to help. He was a little out of his league, and he admitted it, but it worked out well and I found a nice new pair of glasses (I think... we'll see next week when I pick them up and can inspect them with clear vision).

I carefully drove to work (SUPER carefully) and then remembered that I decided to get rid of my office chair and start sitting on an exercise ball because it's better for me (in theory so far). I kind of like it because instead of tappy my foot when I get bored, I now bounce on my ball which sort of makes me laugh. I probably look ridiculous. So be it.

I'm so glad it's a short week. Thanksgiving can't come fast enough. I'm pretty sure I'd rather be at home looking silly than at work. I'm also pretty glad I didn't say anything to Dr. Mitch about being Ex's twin.

S is for Scary, I is for Irrational

Some things in life scare me... a lot. Some of those things make sense, like huge gross spiders, and creepy-crawly little animals, and drunk drivers. Some of those things do not.



I'm trying my best to get over those things, but I cannot always talk myself out of them. Mostly, I'm afraid because I'm insecure; uncertain of the outcome of a situation because I don't control other people and what they will decide to do/not do. Not that I want to control other people (not even a little bit) but you know what I mean.



Anyhow, I was feeling totally silly this weekend because I just can't talk myself out of being scared by relationships. I think I'm doing a pretty good job keeping my irrational fears/emotions at bay until I can deal with them in a healthy way, but for some freaking reason I had a problem this weekend. Who knows why. Maybe it's the impending holiday season? You tell me.

But I've got to tell you, BF is great at helping me deal. He may not know it, and he may not even know that I'm one big ball of chaos on the inside sometimes, but I'm very thankful for him. I'm also very thankful that he has a sense of humor about things because things would not work out if he didn't.

Cute story from this weekend:

We're riding in the car and BF says, "Look at what is written on my hand."

So I look, expecting a funny doodle or word or even a gross joke, but no, I found the word "FLOWERS" printed across the back of his hand.

"Flowers... for what?" I ask.

"For you! I was going to get flowers for you for being so great and understanding during this semester... but I didn't like any of the flowers."

"Oh! Well, that's the sweetest thing ever!"

And you know what? Even though I didn't actually get the flowers, I got something better. Reassurance that I actually mean something to someone that I care about... enough that he thinks about me when we aren't hanging out. That is very nice to know.

Sappy enough for you? Happy Monday.

Balance in the Universe

*BIG SIGH*

Just a couple of things on my mind today:

1. How do some people have jobs? They don't do anything, and yet they are still employed. I'm baffled. BAFFLED. There is a long and boring story that goes with this, but I'm thinking in the future that I may have a hand in streamlining some processes at work that eliminate these people that take up space and make it harder for me to get a decent raise (not that I don't make good money, but you know what I mean).

2. Why do good things happen to idiotic, emotionally retarded, lying, cheating, BAD people and terrible things happen to sweet, kind, funny, talented, generous, trusting, honest people? I honestly don't get it. I mean, sure there are some situations that balance out in the end and good prevails, blah blah blah, but I'm talking about a specific situation here with someone WONDERFUL that I know that has to go through HORRIBLE things even though this person has never done a bad thing in their life, ever... not even thought a bad thing about anyone else. I'm totally serious. Most stand-up person I know. I'm extremely frustrated about it because while great Person #1 lives through Hell, bad Person #2 has everything handed to him and never gets what's coming his way and life is generally pleasant and easy for him. I wish I could change things for Person #1, and then be there when Person #2 get's his comeuppance. (it's a word).


What is making me happy right now are the following:

1. New music I'm IN LOVE with that isn't that new at all, but I just started really listening to it, so there. Click HERE to see what I'm talking about.

2. A certain movie is coming out this week. If you can't guess what it is, you're WAY out of the loop. If you can, don't make fun of me, I know you're probably going in secret this weekend.

3. Wearing boots because it's been rainy and cold.

4. Spending the weekend with BF since he's mostly done with classes after this week. Which also means we will get to hang out more in the evenings (hopefully).

5. My new haircut. Seriously haven't had a professional haircut since Spring.

What I Did At Work Today...

I mean, not to brag, but I have a pretty freakin' cool job and I work for a pretty rad company (did I just say rad? Yes, that just happened).

Anywho, I was invited to a little art-show/party on campus today featuring Bunky Echo Hawk (click on it!), a Native American artist who specializes in pop culture art and political/social commentary art. He does some pretty cool stuff.

So we got to watch him do some live art (which I've been sworn to secrecy about, so I cannot show you any pics until the end of the month, sorry!) and got to know a little bit about him. If you just do a Google image search of him you will find some neat things he's done that are more popular. Sadly today he didn't have the print I wanted for sale, so I'm totally going to order it when his website is up and running. You may or may not have seen this painting he did of Obama:



SO..... it was a good day.

Not My Favorite, But Not Terrible... A Review

SO...

I bought the new Weezer album, Raditude.



Yes, I actually spent money on it. And I actually went to the store instead of downloading it. Can I just take a little detour here and tell you something? It's much better to buy a physical compact disc than to download an album. I feel cheated when I don't have a physical token of something I've spent money on. This is why I don't like spending money on food, because the only physical thing you get from that is usually indigestion and extra weight. Anyhow...

I walked myself down Burnside to good old E.M. and bought it. Because NO ONE ELSE has it and I'm morbidly curious about it.

I asked the guy at the counter if it sucked. His response was, " I honestly haven't even listened to it because I've been way to busy with movies."

Ugh.

I popped it into the CD player in my car (which I've forgiven for blowing up on me, that's another story) and drove around for a bit just trying to get the feel for this new album.

Ok, so it's not bad. I was really prepared for vomitously horrid, but I got mildly entertaining so I'll take it. I'm not letting Weezer off the hook for their venture into all things crappy in the past decade, but this was listenable. Mostly I just thought the lyrics were funny and the melodies a bit sophmoric, but then I realized that there are a handful of songs that I will be putting into playlists so it wasn't a failure.

Not the next big album, though. To sum it up in one word, "Eh".


...so I guess I'm still blogging. Deal.



*** UPDATE*** (11/15/09)

So BF says I'm being too nice and that my "Eh" rating is far too generous. He may be right.

Break

I'm taking a break... from pretty much everything that I normally do. Well, not everything, but most things that you can think of.


Why? Because I'm freakin' exhausted. I'm very tired of all the same stuff that fills my life up and I have to change that. I'm starting to feel obligated to do things and guilty about things that don't matter and that's just not right. I don't want to live my life doing things because I think someone else is going to be hurt or upset if I don't do them. I want to do things for ME, without consequence to someone else... and even if there is disapproval on someone else's end, I'm not going to worry too much about it.

I may or may not continue to blog. I guess we'll see how I feel about it.

THINGS and STUFF

Ok, so it's been like a week since I've posted. I'm sorry to the 3 or so of you that actually read this.

So here's what's been going on in my life since last week:

Friday: Went to 2 "Halloween" parties and got to dress up like Marilyn Monroe. Should've taken pictures... it was GREAT.

Saturday: Moved my extra stuff to a storage space... jeez I have a lot of stuff. A lot of necessary stuff. Went to an Arrested Development themed Halloween party and it was SO FUN. Had the best cheese-things for a snack... so buttery and delicious. Then went to a sketch comedy show that was so hilarious at one point I almost peed my pants. Went to the Alibi to see the costume contest and listen to people sing ridiculous Karaoke and hang out with our friend Meagan. I heart her.

Monday: Scrambled around trying to find catering and photographers for two work events. One of my bosses informed me that he was leaving the company. Felt elated and also upset by this for many reasons (which I will go into at another time). My computer DIED at work.

Tuesday: Had to take my computer to the IT folks to get it fixed, and got set up with a loaner laptop. Met with boss's boss and admin to figure out what I'm going to have to do to keep things running until they get a replacement. Scrambled to get final details for work event this weekend signed off.

Today: Cleaned out boss's old office. UGH. Rearranged my office. Was asked if I'd like to go to one of the work events I was helping plan this weekend in Seattle... had to book flight/hotel/car for event for myself (for once). I'm excited. Still trying to iron out details for this event. If you are wondering about this event, click HERE. It's a release party for that particular thing. There are different styles of it. YAY. Still waiting on computer... apparently mine isn't "fixable" so they are ordering me a new one. FINALLY. That thing ran like crud.

Anyway, I'll update you on more fun things later.